Hello, everyone! Or those of you that actually read this. Sometimes I feel like I'm just yelling into the wind...
Contrary to what you might have come to believe, I am still very much alive. I have just taken a step back from sharing my life so openly online lately. I have blogged actively for nearly a decade, leaving my life open like a book for any and everyone to assess and critique, but over the last couple of months I have learned that it may be best for me to step away from that for a while, if not forever.
I just don't feel as safe sharing so much online anymore. What used to be a safe haven for me, the one place I could actually be sociable, has become something completely different. I no longer feel safe, mostly because every community/site I used to love seems to be filling with childish, judgmental people who rather than accept people's lives and choices want to condemn them or make light of it. Not to me necessarily, but it's just something I've noticed happening more and more and I really don't want to be a part of it anymore.
Also, I just simply feel that it's more important that I utilize my handwritten journal to take a look at my life than it is to subject it to the scrutiny of strangers. I'm at a point in my journey that I need to quiet the noise around me and listen only to myself.
Don't get me wrong, I very much have an online presence. After all, my very best friends are online and it's the only way I am comfortable socializing. I am extremely active on Tumblr (
sayhedgehog.tumblr.com) on Twitter (
@roxieprince) and on various pagan and hedgehog forums. I don't plan on leaving the interwebs completely, just stepping back a little.
Yes, I deactivated my Facebook account. It's funny, once I did I got an influx of text messages from people that hardly ever spoke to me through Facebook asking where I went. Seems to me, there are plenty of ways to get ahold of me if you truly want to aside from the atrocity that is Facebook. Why did I deactivate? Mostly because I don't really need to know what 300+ people who aren't active in my daily life are doing every minute of every day. It was just a lot of noise that needed to be silenced and it was and I am happy.
I've even thought about deleting this blog (and still might) because I don't really know if anyone actually
reads this and because it's yet another place I feel obligated to paint a portrait of my life for the world to see. I have yet to delete though because I feel like this is the only way some of my family can stay up to date with what's going on in my life. (I guess not if I never update it though, huh? Heh.) Perhaps I just feel like there isn't much place for what I have to say anymore and I'm content with that. Who knows what will become of this place, but for now it's still here.
I'm still here.
